Reflections

I've been thinking how we all can be a little bit unappreciative of the life that God has given us. I'm not trying to preach any one because I know that I'm not a perfect daughter of God but I do have faith, hope, doubts, and fears just like every one else. But I believe that no matter who you are you still yearn for some greater force to help guide you through things. We all need a shoulder to lean on, whether that shoulder be physical or spiritual. Whoever your God is, he is the king of our creation and he made you with 3 beautiful gifts that anyone can receive....the gift of Life....the power to Love......and the freedom and right to Choose.

Do you actually Live Life? I know for me its still a big work in progress but at least I try. Do you use your Power to Love? Yes for females this come easier but it does not mean that men have to be insensitive. Saying you care for someone, whether its just as friends or a deep connection. We all have some form of love in our hearts we just don't let it show of fear of vulnerability. Do you really realize the how your choices affect you forever. 

So all I would suggest that we as human beings start to do is appreciate! Appreciate those who came before us and fought to give us rights, options, freedoms, and curious minds. Appreciate the ones that are around you now, because there are over 7 billion other people that they can be faithful friends with. Yes we all have our own definition of faithful but in the end its still means some form of Loyalty. Appreciate your life and make sure you at least try to live it without too many regrets, worry, nor stress.

Lost Lives....

A week or two ago I had some people around me tell me how they had recently lost people in their lives and all I could think about was how life is not promised to anyone. You know the saying "Death comes in 3's" well for me this month I have found out 5 people have died so far that were from friends and only 1 that I knew. I only knew this nice, charismatic girl through a family member because they were best friends for years. She died at a young age due to health problems and it is a very sad situation because she had the opportunity to get healthy. Unfortunately she was young and when your young and trying to figure out who your friends are you get peer pressured. Now I know I may be making myself sound older than I already am but I truly and only 25 but I tend to think/refer to things like I'm well past 35/40. Weird? My family thinks so, but I can't help it. All I know, is that the whole time that I was trying to come to terms with this youthful girl is that just lost her life was......what if it was me or someone I truly care about and love. NOW I know that a lot of people would read this and think, hear we go again, but I thought that not to be selfish to her poor soul. I thought that because it made me reflect and want to change my life as well. Now I will admit, even though I did not know her all that well but from the few times I met her and saw her interact with my cousin, she really made an impression on my soul. I cried when I got alone and I prayed for her soul and for God to give her family strength to get through. R.I.P. M.T.

Living And Dealing With Life!

Sometimes I have to stop and think about what's important to me. We as human beings tend to get distracted by everything that's going on around us. We let things like what others say about us effect what we do and how we do things. We let family dictate our life happiness.

I have come to a point in my life where I will try my hardest not to let that happen. I plan on stressing less, laughing more and really just living my life for me. I refuse to turn 25/26 in a year or two and not be happy with my life. I refuse to see these ages and not have anything to show myself. To say I did that. I accomplished that. All by myself!!! No BSin around. My family will just have to face it. I love myself to much to not care and do for me.

Misleading Cars

So my current job is in the rental car business and I have to say that there is never a dull moment @my job. From the lack of common sense, to the utter stupidity of customers and coworkers. I must say I truely get a kick out of my work day.

Now who has ever gotten in a car that the features are misleading. Case in point the car has a satellite radio button but no satellite radio that come to find out is an extra fee that you have to pay.

Now I must commend Hyundai because one their cars finally told me the truth. I dislike it when I get into a car and the automatic window button says "auto" which means it will automatically roll down and up. Well we all know that this is not true. The Hyundai brand has put on some of their vehicles models that the window is "auto down" only. Which to many may not seem that important or as much of a big deal. But to me its just plain common sense and common courtesy.

First Times

So this morning I wanted to see the Sunrise for the first time. I went by myself and I will admit at first I was a little worried because all I could think about was this is the kind of thing were girls get killed. All alone.............on a beach....................early in the morning. Just the type of scenario when some creepy guy comes up behind you and kidnaps you. Yeah you can catch my picture on the evening news saying that the last time anyone had ever seen me was the night before. So while I was waiting to see the sun rise, I had time to take in my surroundings and think and appreciate what I have. I began to realize that, of course, life only happens, when you make it happen. I have always wanted to see the sunrise and never wanted to do it alone or would just make any excuse as to why I haven't done it. Well ENOUGH of that. I really enjoyed myself, so from now on. I will start doing things that I have always wanted to do. I am tired of living life everyday wanting to do things and not accomplishing anything. I will try to blogging my success. As a matter of fact I will make a list.

Supernatural

Ok, this is really late but from now on every time I watch this new season of my hit show Supernatural I just have to vent all my questions, cares and concerns for the world. So I am going to try and be faithful to this blog by every week informing you on my favorite show but it may not be on schedule with the premiere night so bare with me a little bit.

How Do You Get Back What You May Have Already Lost?

Tonight I was talking to a good friend of mine's and we where discussing how ppl can come and go in your lives and how what you think you want is not always what you need. Yeah Yeah Yeah we have all heard of this before but have we actually stopped to think about what this truely means?

Like for instance with myself, I would like to get back in touch with a good friend but don't know if it will ever be possible. Not saying that we were the best of friends but we related to each other. See its funny how we pick and choose the people in our lives. This was truely a great person and I may have fucked it up by stepping out of line with my words. Now I can't say that this is what I need but I know when ppl are really there to be my friend and not. Trust me I have encounter those "users" before. I thank those "users" because they have helped me pick out the bullshit in my friend soup, so to speak. (yeah I'm weird like that, but that is not the case)

To me friendship is truely important and I for one knows who i want to be my friend and vice versa. Sometimes I wish more and more ppl had this logic and intuition but at last this can not be so. My friend that I spoke with also told me that I am already ahead of the game then he is but he upped me by 0.001% by stating after wanting this "thing/person" stop to think to yourself what does this person want from you? I told him that I totally understand and agree to what he was saying and in life we will never know the real truth to this question because lets all be honest with each other, Who really is honest with every person in their lives?

I have strayed from the topic here, but my question still needs to be answered. How do I go about finding the friend that I have lost? When simple means of communication is no longer an option. I suppose that I will have to rely on time.

"LIFE IS ALL ABOUT timing... the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable.... attainable. Have the patience, wait it out because its all about TIMING."

Life is just simply THAT complex to me.

Bruno Mars announces debut album

Bruno Mars announces debut album

Bruno Mars likes fedoras, magic and Brooklyn girls

Bruno Mars likes fedoras, magic and Brooklyn girls

?Suspicious People? Aren't Suspicious Until We Make Them Out To Be Suspicious

Isn't it crazy how ppl just turn into monsters in your mind when they become suspicious. Ex: today a guy was hanging around @my job and @first i was just worried about the products I was out there watching over. But when someone put it in my head that he could hide in the back office &jump out if i didnt lock it up. I got concerned for my life. Now i know i don't know karate or nothing but i'd like to give myself some credit for being able to defend myself. After that I was really scared. Then she saw airport police and went to mention it to him and when he asked where the guy was and she said he disappeared. He just left and said OK. Like I'm not normally that scared over something like that until someone else brings it to my attention that i could get hurt. Normally I just think about others before myself. Cuz who will really b there when all is said and done. If you continuously think about yourself first then that's all you will have at the end of the day, is yourself!

Scorpio Twittascope, Friday, July 30, 2010

Scorpio Twittascope, Friday, July 30, 2010
just checked my horoscope and this is exactly how today was for me

B.O.B.

Not to be confused with B.o.B. aka Bobby Ray. I'm talking about Raheem DeVaughn's song B.O.B. (Battery Operated Boyfriend). This song is hot, as to be expected from him. I have his first two Cd's and normally I have been good with buying Cd's when they first come out. But for some reason I haven't bought any Cd's in a while. But I know that this man has yet to fail me as far as his musical sense of style. There is and have never been one song that he has made that I have skipped on his CD. In fact it is so bad that I had to buy one of his Cd's over because it was so scratched up. I have never experienced that kind of love for an artist. I may buy their Cd's continuously however there is just something about him. So I have just downloaded a few tracks off of lime wire to catch up to him. I feel like I have failed him as a fan so tomorrow morning I will go to FYE and buy that deluxe cd of "The Love & War Masterpiece"!!!!

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Can you believe this was taken on a sunny day in a Beetle?

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"Love me to pieces"

Erik Hassle

"Of all the lonely people, I want to be loved by you!"
"Like the first time, Its heart over mind and it feels like the first time"
"If holding hands is too discrete, then lets make out in the middle of the street. Isn't It Obvious that I love you!"

You have to check him out, PLEASE! Erik Hassle is as amazing as those lyrics sound like

New title of the blog

Yes it is a lyric from one of Paramore's songs. I have always loved them as a band, I absolutely am in love with Hayley's voice. But for some reason lately they have reached out to me even more. When I first heard this song I knew it was a hit. But every time I would hear it again and again I would fall in love more and more. Till when I hear and I sing along, mind you I can't sing worth crap, I just want to cry. I know that that is a powerful thing. There are plenty of songs out there in the world that touch peoples hearts and makes them do crazy things. But this song in particular I interpret it in a different way. I don't just interpret it the way Hayley does, even though it is the meaning of the song, but she really links it to how Bella and Edward interacted. Hayley states that, "I chose the title "Decode" because the song is about the building tension, awkwardness, anger and confusion between Bella and Edward. Bella's is the only mind Edward can't read and I feel like that's a big part of the first book and one of the obstacles for them to overcome. It's one added tension that makes the story even better." I also feel that it is the building tension, awkwardness, anger and confusion but these emotions are directed to LOVE!!! I have loved so hard that now that I don't have it I miss it so much. I want to cry thinking about it sometimes. I think every female can attest to this. I am trying to not be impatient but sometimes when matters are so complex and yet still be so delicate that it makes you loose all common sense. Basically "How did I get here, I used to know you (love) so well, How did I get here, Why wont you show yourself, I think I know. There is something, I see in you, It might kill me, But I want it to be TRUE!!"

Is it me or just you?

You know I have so many different characteristics but can't seem to find one that matches my own. I think I get close but then, of course, no success. I've never been know to be cocky or over confident and I truly believe that beauty does lie within the beholder. There was a time in my life when I was just focused on trying to meet people who could possibly be boyfriends. But I have truly overcome that stage in my life. I call this the stage of finding true friends in this city that I have come to make my home. Yeah a long title, I know. I don't get along well with women. Its not out of jealousy nor hatred. I just have never been able to hold on to them and quite frankly I really don't mind. I like men, the male species. I prefer talking to a guy on everything. Well not exactly everything but you catch my drift. To me men are easier to hang out with, they are easier to trust (as long as there are no strings attached), they tend to get the big picture at times. Now back home in Philadelphia I have loads of male friends. Here in Virginia still working on it. Not saying I don't have any, I do but I'm still trying to figure them out. I just don't know where to begin finding friends let alone true friends that I can hang out with and chill. I'm not a mall female. I don't just go to walk around, I prefer movies, bowling, go carts, amusement parks. Ok so there are some things I wont do all the time cuz I'm not good at it, like fishing. So with all that said, is it me or just you who can't be my friend or interested in me. I know I don't have all this painted on my face but I don't know how to let people know who I am without being assertive. Any suggestions?

BANDED

I hope that last post don't get banded, cuz it was pretty vulgar

Expectations

How would you respond to someone telling you that if you don't make a certain sales quota by the end of the month that you would be basically out of a job. How the hell am I supposed to respond to that, I respond the way I know, calmly, submissively, and quietly. I should have went the fuck off. The more and more that I think about it, it makes me upset even more. I mean I have never given anyone any problems with me other than my dumb-ass roommate, who in time has become a BITCH!!!. But anyway, I have no issues with my coworkers, I always am willing to go above and beyond if a manager or anyone asks me for help. I truly don't get it. In the middle of the month you tell me this. With only what 12 days left in the month and out of those twelve I automatically get 4 days off. So can we calculate that up please? In 8 days, I'm supposed to bring my sales up to a certain marker and then while doing this I have to be stuck at the counter where we get the most government business that hurts my numbers. I don't normally despise this counter, I'm normally the one willing to go, to avoid any more debate over who goes. But FUCK that shit from now on. OK so if i don't make this quota are you going to just fire me? Why not transfer me to another position where YOU would benefit most from me. I do well at all aspects of this business. Stop being a fucking ass hole and be understanding. Cuz a few months back before you came and someone else couldn't make there sales, she got moved to another department. Y not I? There is so much more to this and normally I don't like putting my personal business out on the web. But this the way I vent is by talking it out. I know there is no one there to respond but as long as i get it out there to the world, i feel like a weight is lifted, well @ least part of the weight. Cuz I really, honestly had to fight back 3 set of tears today in front of customers. You would have thought that someone died. But deep inside I feel like I kinda have, I have come to truly love this job and its ppl, they still have a lot to learn and ways to improve but I am very beneficial to this environment! I know crying is not a sign of weakness but today I was weak, very weak. When I have tried and so far its not helping at all. Its funny how they expect me to go down without a fight. I am seriously about to go crazy but i bet u one thing, this job is not going to give me any grey's. Its just crazy when you count on a source of income, you just closed on a new place and then this shit happens. They r very much aware that i am moving as well, but they could care less. They just want to get rid of the other brand and make it all of their ass-kissing staff. So now I have 5 more days starting midnight!!!!! Wish me luck World!!!